one of my favorite movie lines is that one from "a league of their own"..."there's no crying in baseball!"... that's me this morning.
i woke up edgy and agitated and feeling terribly sad and overwhelmed this morning.
i have a sick tortie to deal with and it's breaking my heart to listen to her snuffle and sneeze, but the vet said it is a cold virus and just needs to run it's course. they gave her an antibiotic and a steroid (eeek!!) for the respiratory infection she had, but the cold is lingering. i'm supposed to watch her and make sure she is eating and drinking (and it would take a pack of wild dogs to drag patches away from her food bowl!), but other than that there is nothing we can do.
poor baby girl.
and her mama is at the end of her rope today too...i haven't been the same since i took that last bout of ear drops with the steroid in it. i've talked to nurses, doctors, pharmacists...all have told me i will fine and it will get out of my system...but i am loosing hope. i read about a woman online who had side effects for a YEAR after taking a steroid for a week. it appears i may be in the same boat. and i'm tired of being tired, angry, shaky, and cry-ey. i am normally a very vibrant, energetic person who is very happy. i feel like shit about half the time now...no energy and i cry at the drop of a hat.
i've been holding it in for a while, but this morning, it just came flooding out.
i guess i didn't sleep very well last night.
and i dreamed a mean woman was making fun of my pink underwear.
(i have no picture to represent that, by the way....)
there IS NO CRYING in doll making, so i have to suck it up and get on back to the studio.
i've been working on some new pieces and working on some new paintings. and i like the direction they are taking.
so, off i go....
until next time....