Friday, November 21, 2008

Holiday Craft Show in NOLA

i was just invited to be a part of the holiday craft market at the big top here in new orleans. i did this show the year of katrina and i had a blast - besides making enough money to buy joseph a print he had been looking at that day.

for those of you who live in or might be in the big sleazy during the holidays,
the show is SUNDAY DECEMBER 14TH FROM 12-5PM

stop by and say hi if you can!

with the economy as it is, i have not been making much jewelry - just fiddling around with the bead embroidery and taking care or myself.

i do have a good bit of inventory, but this morning i started making some cute, vintage, inexpensive earrings to take with me to the show. i made some cute ones and will post pics early next week.

i am going to have to order some more chain and possibly some ear wires, but i am not going overboard.

i hope i do well. it would be nice to make some extra cash this time of year.

wish me luck!

Friday, November 14, 2008

SEUS holiday gift guide - jewelry

check out my holiday jewelry gift guide on the
southeastern etsy blog!

i had a lot of fun putting these pics together.


Wednesday, November 12, 2008

experiments in bead embroidery

my first attempt at bead embroidery. i have been enjoying this more than anything i have made in a long long time! i realize i have a long way to go, but you gotta start somewhere.

the flower basket cabachon is vintage from the 1930's. i have had it for nearly 8 years - just liked it and bought it not knowing what i would do with it. i am going to make it into a pendant por moi.

the purple piece is a vintage sew on - i don't know how old - which i just purchased from a seller on etsy. it is gynormous and those are size 8 rounds i beaded around it with. mainly just figuring out stitches and patterns and improvising on this one. will be a cuff for me when it is done.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

thinking out loud part IV

well, i am finally back home from my 5 gruelling days in atlanta for the day job.

i don't really like travelling for work - mostly because they don't pay me enough to do so. i also hate staying in hotels designed for business travellers. i found out the hard way that the average american business traveller doesn't use real half & half in their coffee as demonstrated by the hampton inns and suites in east point, georgia.


i live in new orleans. give me a real cup of coffee dammit!

the jewelry show was a complete flop. totally not worth my employer sending me to work it as the owner and artist was there himself. still don't know why i was...

if it makes anybody feel better - the economy is so bad that even my boss can't sell jewelry. and his stuff sells itself.

and since i was staying out in east bumblefork atlanta, i did not get the chance to network and hang out with my friends like i wanted to. i stayed in my little stinky room and watched old episodes of ANGEL on TNT. which, actually turned out to not be a bad show. don't know why i never watched it before.

as you can see from the above paragraph, i did not bring my beads. i should have, but i thought i would be hanging out and networking. one day i will learn.

so, i had 8 hours in the car up and 8 on the way back to think about my life, my jewelry, my blood pressure, my wants and needs, the brand new pimples on my face, why i never say what i think anymore, what happened to my dreams, will my lymph nodes swell every time the cat scratches me, what the @$#*! am i going to do about christmas this year, am i ever going to pay off my credit card debt, will i ever break in my new shoes, why am i good at retail when i hate it soooo much, should i cut my hair again, why do i have nothing in common with most of my friends anymore, and when will the final 10 episodes of battlestar galactica start?

it was a long trip. both ways.

the truth is, i totally ignored my thoughts on the way up. i knew i needed to sort some stuff out, but i wasn't going to. i completely refused to look within. i am not normally a thought represser. i completely and totally believe in looking deep deep down into the darkest recesses of the soul and trying to figure out why a person
(ie me) act/feels the way they do. but i could not bring myself to do it on the trip up. i just sang dolly parton songs and tried to ignore the inner rumblings of my mind.

but, then i got to the show and i saw my friend, jamie who had some words of wisdom for me. none of which i can remember at the moment, but whatever it was, she got me to thinking about all the things that have been bothering me these last few months, and i realized that i just don't have any confidence any more. that is the root of the problems i have been having. i have no confidence. and i sincerely and truly believe that my job has a lot to do with that. i let it get to me. i let the fact that i do a good majority of the work but make very little money get to me. i let the fact that no one listens to me or takes my advice get to me. and i shouldn't. it's just a job. pay the bills. go home. end of story.

but, i am not the kind of person who can do that. i take pride in what i do and when that hard work is largely ignored ( until they need me to come in early) i get really really really upset.

not anymore. done. it's a paycheck. not who i am. and i have been putting a lot of importance on that lately.

defining who i am by what i do.

and i feel like a total utter complete and unrepairable failure.

i can't deal with feeling that way any more. and i won't.

i started to realize a few months back that i was putting a lot of pressure on myself to sell my jewelry and i have been really upset for a long time about etsy not doing well for me.

well, finally about 2 weeks ago, i started feeling like i wanted to try some new things and make some changes in my designs. so i started looking into bead embroidery and free form peyote stitch. it has just about been the most freeing experience i have had i a long time.

because i am working for me!!!!

it feels fabulous!!!!

i am no where near where i wanted to be at this stage in my life. not one damn thing has gone according to my plans other than getting out of georgia and having joseph fall in love with me. so, i took a long look at what has been making me soooooooo effing unhappy these last long months and i figured out 2 things:

1-i don't do anything for me anymore.
2-i don't say what i think or feel.

you can't go through life doing either one of those things.

in fact, i am 98% sure that not saying what i think or feel has been one major source of my blood pressure spikes.

so, sorry kids - the gloves are off. i have to start speaking up. i have always been the kind of person where what you see was what you got, but i have been letting "retail mode" take over my entire life ---- i am always polite, always non confrontational, and always mad at everyone because i feel taken for granted and taken advantage of.

not anymore.

i only get this one life according to most of the folks i know, so it's time that i started enjoying it a little more.

of course, i am an old school southern superstitious lady and i also realized that i am afraid to have a good time or think positive thoughts because that usually means that bad things will follow ( see california trip followed by trips to doctors). so, i have to get over that as well.

i know i have a lot more work to do on me and i know it will be a long road, but i guess this is as good a place as any to start.

doing what i want and saying what i feel.

and not defining me by my lousy ass paycheck.

Monday, November 3, 2008

haute craft & halloween in new orleans

haute craft opening at rhino 10-30-08

yours truly in front of her bracelet display at haute craft opening

natalie nichols in front of her fabulous feather pieces at opening of haute craft

ashley beach with her seed sculptures - opening of haute craft

halloween in new orleans - 1st annual krewe du boo parade

halloween in new orleans - french quarter balcony

halloween in new orleans

Saturday, November 1, 2008

what's new with me

so, you may have noticed that i have not been beading much lately...

i have had some health problems over the last few months starting with blood pressure spikes and ending in my finding a lump under my right arm.

everything has turned out to be fine: i have a new general practitioner who agrees with me that more cardio,less worry, and some anger management will help the blood pressure to normalize and after a full round of blood tests, sonograms, and mammograms, it looks like the lump was a reactive lymph node brought on by a scratch from the lovely miss patches.

so, after all of this, i decided to treat myself and i bought the two books pictured here:

i have become absolutely obsessed with texture in beading. i think i have looked at every piece of free form peyote on google and flickr as well as about half their bead embroidery pics. i have some ideas and i hope they will work out relatively similar to what i am imagining. you know most designs start as one idea and evolve into something completely different.

i have also recently gotten reacquainted with brick stitch and am eager to see what developes there.

i also just purchased some round seed beads - i have been a die hard delica fan for over 10 years, but after experimenting with some toho rounds recently, i have found that i like the roundness for texture, the colors are deeper and richer, and i also found they lay against the fabric better for the embroidery. so, i have a nice big shipment coming in next week and i am eager to get to work. i hope they get here before i have to leave for atlanta next week on a business trip.

i shouldn't have, but, again, i felt i deserved it after all of the doctor visits and bills.

i also have some pics from the haute craft opening to post as well as halloween in new orleans. i will put those up later this weekend.

until then...